10.16.09

i know i have neglected this blog- but honestly it’s hard for me to write when i honestly have nothing to say- nor the time to say it.
today i am taking the time (or making the time) to write.
first and foremost: school basically owns my soul along with my free time and thankfully at least [...]

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keep in mind that i am posting even the images that i do not like that much.

they would probably have the greatest impact if it was one isolated frame- and not grouped together like this.
takes the edge off, i guess.
sometimes white on white works- in this case not so much.

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more more more…………

this one looks so much better printed out. i think it looks terrible in this format….
also my negative is apparently dirty. this image looks just muddy to me.
this is kendall (again). i believe this was taken at either age 15 or age 16. not sure. it gets blurred together.
i originally shot this- and [...]

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last night i drank a white russian milkshake-
and the caffeine (wtf was up with coffee in it?!) made me all wired and crazy.
(i do not drink caffeine so any amount will send me into a manic weirdness)
-my mind was racing like crazy, i was so restless, and yet i couldnt make up my mind on [...]

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alive and well

hay!
I survived the Obama Inauguration party last night- barely.
I have no idea why I decided to just drink drink drink…
Perhaps it was because we had to wait for the other food to be cooked
(we ate at like 930!!! this party started at like 6pm)
Anyway- did I mention that I hardly ever drink? So I am [...]

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I am Holiday-ed Out

I am still on vacation until January 5th (Monday)-
I didn’t get back from the Hill Country until this past Sunday-
and my goodness sakes alive I WAS SO GLAD TO GET OUT
I love my family…. alot…. but I need to maintain my distance and only see them in small doses.
I get riled up so easily and I feel like I am going [...]

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Anxiety!

It’s the middle of the week and I am hopped up on caffeine.
(I never drink it- and once I do I am completely fried from it. I feel like I have ADD)
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I forgot to mention that Bastian’s mom is planning on coming to visit…
THIS CHRISTMAS.
She mentioned this casually back in August but it didn’t hold [...]

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Happy Holidays.

I am definitely not in a good place today.
My mom called me yesterday to tell me she had been layed off from her job and that she is putting her house up for sale sometime this week.
This is the 3rd (or 4th, I cant remember) time she has been layed off from work-
the first time [...]

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Uh…

Paige, my seven year old goddaughter, dressed up as HIllary Clinton for Halloween…
but yesterday Dannie texted me with this:
“Paige voted for McCain in the school election because a kid told her Obama thinks its ok to kill babies”

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Halloween

Ok so I uploaded an actual image of my outfit then I got self-conscious and took it down…
I honestly see these pictures of myself and I feel like I am looking at someone else.
I dont feel like I look that way but once I see the pictures I am alarmed by how I look.
I hate [...]

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