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10.16.09

Posted in UGH, anxiety, art, tagged , , on October 16, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

i know i have neglected this blog- but honestly it’s hard for me to write when i honestly have nothing to say- nor the time to say it.
today i am taking the time (or making the time) to write.
first and foremost: school basically owns my soul along with my free time and thankfully at least [...]

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Happy Mother’s Day

Posted in Holidays, anxiety, family, tagged , , , on May 11, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

my sister offered to come to houston to see my mom on mother’s day.
so why did my mom go out of town anyway?
because:
if she stayed in houston then she would feel required to see her own mother.
nevermind that her other daughter lives in houston. (me)
so if you’re keeping score at home-
mom is gone for easter, [...]

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Posted in UGH, anxiety, tagged , on April 20, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

last night i drank a white russian milkshake-
and the caffeine (wtf was up with coffee in it?!) made me all wired and crazy.
(i do not drink caffeine so any amount will send me into a manic weirdness)
-my mind was racing like crazy, i was so restless, and yet i couldnt make up my mind on [...]

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a nudge in the right direction

Posted in anxiety, life, me, tagged , , on March 3, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

ok so 2009 so far:
-both my parents were layed off from their respective jobs.
-i started school again but it’s been a slow process getting acclimated to a rigorous study schedule.
-my mom entered a contract with someone to buy her house so she had a garage sale and sold ALL of her furniture. turns out the buyer [...]

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Quick Notes

Posted in anxiety, bipolar, random, volunteer, tagged , , , , , , on February 5, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Quick Notes:
-I had an anxiety attack or something similar to it except I was feeling simultaneously mania, panic, and depression. WTF
are my wires crossed?
I think that I literally might be allergic to schoolwork. or at the very least the stress that accompanies it.
-I am a jackass because I complain about stuff that isn’t even worth [...]

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Willpower gone.

Posted in WTF, anxiety, bipolar, flashback, i love the internetz, tagged , , on February 4, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

OUT OF CONTROL.
Okay so I am back on an upswing of mania- which means tonight I will start the clonopin regimen again until I calm down again.
Totally necessary… as I cannot seem to concentrate on anything other than my racing thoughts.
So this week, my friend Geoffrey asked me to help him track down an old [...]

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Quick Notes

Posted in Music, anxiety, food, me, obsessions, random, tagged , , , , on January 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Quick Notes:
-R.I.P. Missbehave Magazine. -I dont care what anyone says- its not really a magazine if its online-only.
-I want to become a nun but I kinda don’t and well…. I kinda can’t.
-I went to Heather’s birthday thing last night at Cecil’s. I had to leave early due to bf dramatics.
I felt bad for leaving that [...]

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Weekend Update

Posted in anxiety, life, movies, scared, weekend, tagged , , , , , on January 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »

Let’s start off with the bad news that I received this morning-
my mom called and told me that the people who are buying her house had backed out at the 11th hour
(apparently the husband was layed off from his job)
So that’s terrible news of course- but what makes it infinitely worse is that fact that [...]

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Ramble Ramble

Posted in anxiety, bipolar, me, tagged , , on January 9, 2009 | 1 Comment »

The bipolarity is always a factor in my behavior but some aspects of it sneak up on me and i don’t realize what they are or that they are even bothering me until i feel completely out of control.
Agitation is probably my number one symptom of bipolar… out of everything it is the most bothersome [...]

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